Hello everyone who has been waiting to hear from me! I know that it has been a while since last I have posted anything to my website. A lot has occurred since my last update. Let’s see, what has taken place….hmm… Well, for starters, I got married (pictures to come), went on a magical honeymoon, and then cried for three weeks every day my husband was working and I was home alone. The reason I have not posted for several months has to do with what has taken place in the life of the now Jeny Hague. Firstly, we did not have internet connection at our home so writing blog posts that must be posted to a website online is a bit difficult when there is not a convenient connection. Secondly, JD lost his job within the first month of us being married and did not start working again until mid November. Thirdly, by the time we did have the money to afford a better data plan so there could be some kind of Wi-Fi connection, my school tried to eat me, my sister got married, and I spent many many days being ill. Thank goodness all of those things have passed and life has come to a pause, so to speak. Of course there are challenges that are inevitable to take place. No one is able to avoid them. Yet somehow, these challenges are proving to be more manageable that all that has taken place in the last 8 months. I am grateful for that at least.
Right now, I am enjoying trying to enjoy a relaxing evening without my husband. I ate some salmon for dinner, put on a movie (You’ve Got Mail, just FYI), and painted my nails rose pink with gold glitter. I say that I am trying to relax, because I feel that I am wasting my evening watching a movie and writing. I have recently discovered that drinking alcohol while on the female cycle causes depression. You are probably asking why in the world I would be drinking alcohol while on my period in the first place. Well, I have heard that alcohol decrease cramping, and because I have endometriosis the cramping is horrible. I do mean horrible. On a scale of 1 being no pain and 10 being the worst pain I have ever experienced, the pain usually sits anywhere between a 7 and 9. Every once in a while it hits a 10, but that’s usually on rare occasions. So, with hearing that alcohol helps reduce cramping, I was more than willing to test this theory. The results are that it actually does help. I hardly had any pain, but the major con is the depression. It was pretty bad. I would be fighting the urge to cry constantly and I had no interest in doing anything. JD was very concerned for my well being, but I have learned my lesson. I will never make THAT mistake again. Goodness, it was pretty bad.
Anyways, I was made recently aware that I have not informed every person I know of my recent endeavors in studying abroad in Japan. It is a partnership with Sophia University in Tokyo. It’s not an exchange program, meaning that I will be living with a host family but spending most of my time traveling and attending classes at Sophia University. It’s a summer program so it will only last for 4 weeks. ASU has not released the dates as of yet. I believe that information will be posted late February early March. Once I learn of the specifics I will be sure to inform you all. I am trying to keep everyone equally informed as it has been brought to my attention last night that I apparently fail at doing so myself. So I have decided to seek the assistance of the World Wide Web. J
Now for what has taken place in the past couple of weeks. I started skating again after having to take time off for a couple of months due to financial and medical reasons. It was refreshing. Actually, that is not the right term; it’s more of a feeling. I could spend hours explaining exactly what takes place as I step on the ice and just feel the world disappear and all that is left is the cold air giving me a hug and the smooth ice beneath my blades allowing me to fly. It’s the greatest feeling God has ever allowed me to feel. Sometimes, I wonder what my life would have been like, had skating never been removed from me when I was younger. Would I have been able to compete in the senior competitions that have just taken place in Omaha? Would I be world champion? Would the Olympics have been somewhat obtainable? Would I have performed skating shows? Who would I have become? I wonder these things constantly. Sometimes my heart aches for the future that might have been, but I know that God has so much more planned for me than skating alone. I would probably never have met Josh and I probably would never have found a deep love for music. When I stopped skating, it hurt me deeply. I dived into piano and music because I needed something to fill the void whole skating left me. Had I not stopped skating, I honestly believe that I never would have pursued music as hard as I did. Heck, I don’t think I would have fought so hard to live the life I dream, that I know without a question in my mind that God has planned for me. This is how I choose to view my life now. I choose to view that pain, as learning experience to know exactly what it feels like to have your heart ripped from you. Life isn’t about doing what you want and getting anything and everything you ask for and having the most fun as possible. Life is fun, this is true both ways, but it’s about working hard for what you love. God knows what you desire and He’s willing to help you obtain that, but you also need to be willing to listen to what He is telling you. I have a love for learning Japanese and Japan. It wasn’t until recently that I got a glimpse of what God has planned for me, and it’s better than I could ever dream.
Well, I’d say this is a good stopping point. Until next time!!! Stay warm!